A withdrawal

Rac woke me up yesterday morning by asking me things about matriculation. We discussed about the lifestyle there, how we might require to study all days and nights. After hearing the tiring schedule, she seemed to lost interest about matriculation. She told me that she rather chose form 6 than matric.

Hmm.. what an irony. For the people who fail to get it, they really wanted it and kept trying to appeal. But, for people to have it, they seemed not to appreciate the golden opportunity. I knew it would be wrong for me to judge her decision because for her to take such drastical action to withdraw from the scholarship, she must had her reasonable excuse(s). But, i could help from feeling a bit dissappointed. She was my best friend, the one who always with me to overcome various challenges in secondary school life. She was selfless and always lent me a helping hand without stopping a second for hesitation. Therefore, i really hoped she did not choose the wrong path and regret it later. For me, matriculation would be a whole lot better than form 6. haha.. not to say i had prejudice for form 6. But really.. honestly.. form 6.. did not sound appealing at all. well, at least to me.

A part of me felt sad because i would be separated with her if she chose this path. Rachel, i knew i was selfish.. but i really hoped we would not separated. You always had been with me all the time. It would be really hard for me not to rely on you anymore.. Rac. whatever u decided, of course i would give you full support just like you always backed me up. Rac! Gambateh! Let us fight for our future together. If you really determine to take stpm, go for it. I know you can do it and you know that better than anyone else. Just be more confident, k?